will be right back.
give me some time people.


allow me to clear the mess i've made,
untie the knot in my heart that has been for there the past 9 months.
i've learnt my lesson,
i've cried it all out loud today.
i cant bear to let go,
but i know if i dont,
it aint do me any better.
time is going to be my medicine, i hope.
i didn know loving someone was so difficult,so painful, so heart aching...
my sweetest dreams and my worst nighmare i've ever had.
tears have flown out from my eyes non stop,
and my heart still aches so badly.
i'm far too tired to persist on,
i'm hurt too badly.
and i'm going to leave now for good,
but never doubt my love for you previously,
i apologize for able to express my care for you well,
because i didn know how.
sometimes i've really thought of talking to you,
but now i guess this aint the solution as its not going to help either.
i'll just stop giving myself false hopes and lie to myself anymore,
as i see the truth with my own eyes now.
give me time to accept the fact and handle it well.

xoxo,
amanda

misery, sorrow.
i cant take it anymore.